don’t forgive me
don’t save me
don’t make me clean

let me stay hungry
let me stay difficult

let me keep opening doors
they told me were forbidden
let me build something
in every place they left hollow

let me love without disappearing
let me fuck without shame
let me make money
without pretending
i do not want it

let me mother without martyrdom
let me age without becoming invisible
let me take pleasure
without explaining its usefulness

let me want
let me want
let me want

let me stop asking
let me allow it